Saturday, May 17, 2008

Moo is coming!!!

My moo is coming to see me and take me to my little throat scope thingy!
I have to be released to someone over 18 who is responsible because I will be unable to drive or really think. I will still be groggy as thank god they knock a person out for this sort of thing.
I don't even know if anyone ever reads this anymore. It doesn't really matter as I write for myself. So that someday I can look back and see what I was doing and how I was feeling and what I was thinking of or about. So I can travel back in time and relive the pleasant things that have gone on in my life and remind myself of the lessons I have learned. Unfortunatley there are big gaps in time where either I had no internet or just wasn't up to writing.
I have that stuff in my head as well as everything I have gotten to write here in this blog. I have many others too. I find it refreshing to write on different levels and for different reasons. Either just to be creavtive or to really vent and not worry that someone I know or may be venting about will read about it. I have done that here and it caused some issues. So this blog is not for that anymore.
Living here in Moses Lake has been interesting so far.
Its definatley a new area to get used to and the weather is something else! Its almost like being in Mississippi!
People would think thats its dry here in Eastern Washington and that is for the most part true. But the fact that the lake is huge and is oddly shaped keeps things fairly humid also.
I actually really like the weather and already have my first sunburn of the summer. It doesn't matter how much sunblock I use. I burn.
So anywho I will have a great tan this summer for my friends Katie and Grants wedding. I am so excited for them. Not only are they finally getting married after almost ten years together, they are expecting their second child in November!
Ah out of time.
I love you my babies.

Thursday, May 01, 2008

Dear Sierra and Lynndsey

To my babies.
I love you and I miss you so much that sometimes I cry myself to sleep at night.
I worry about you even though I know you are in safe hands. I wonder if you are getting to do the things you love to do. No matter what your grades are. Sierra your art is part of who you are. Keep doing it no matter who says what. You CANNOT be grounded from a part of yourself.
Lynndsey you are the bestest sofball player in the world!!
I don't care what anyone says. You do it best!
Its terrible being without you. In my sleep every night I hug you and kiss you til no end.
I remember when I used to read you bedtime stories, Or sing you to sleep. Most of the time it was the only way I could get you to go to sleep at a decent time!
I remember how loud you guys used to be and how I wished you would just be quiet for a moment. No I wish nothing more then to hear you all playing or fighting or laughing and being loud obnoxious children..
My days are lonely without you.
Pan is old enough to be going to job chorp and not needing mom.
But you my babies. Still need someone to look out for you sometimes. You are getting to be very beautiful young ladies and not babies at all. But that doesn't mean that you are ready to be on your own.
Do your homework. Eat your peas. And wash behind your ears.
I can't wait to see you at the end of June.
I hope to pick you up after Lynns last game. Which I plan on rooting for you at Lynn.
I love you both so much.
You are my heartbeat.