Wednesday, November 30, 2005

Got the job

Well I got a job, I am now a telephone solicitor again.
I feel terrible. I feel like I have taken a step back in time.
I know I should be grateful that I found a job. And I am. I am grateful for the money, I am grateful that I will be able to pay my bills and put gas in my car and get the kids at least one gift for Christmas.
I really never ever wanted to do this kind of work again though. And I can't help but be disapointed in myself.
This is just all together to depressing.
And now. Derek has possibly made a new and better friend. He has met a woman and I have been ignored for the last few days.
This really sucks. This really really really sucks.
Sorry to all those who are used to me being positive. I just don't have it in me right now. I am so disgusted with myself.

Tuesday, November 29, 2005

Possibly last post for awhile????

I don't know when I will be able to post again. I don't know if it will be tomarrow or the day after that, or if I have a week. Anyway, I have to figure out a new way of having access to the internet while I get caught up on everything. I went to a job interview today, I don't think it went very well. They really treated me like I was stupid and they were quite rude. I'm not sure if it was a test or if they are really that way all the time. They are based in a town pretty far from me and I just don't know if its worth it. I think I would rather go to an open interview for a telephone soliciting outfit that is less then two miles away, then work for rude people 22 minutes away freeway time, on a good day.
I know I know, I can't afford to be picky, and believe me I am not being picky. I do have to be realistic. Reality says that with a car that I bought for 100.00$ I would be wise to stick a little closer to home and not put a bunch of wear and tear on the only vehicle I have. So, off to said soliciting interview, and off to the local mall tomarrow, and anywhere else I see I might have a chance of gaining employment.
Sheesh I need the job meant for me to pop up right now. Hell ten years ago would have been great.
I hope you all have a great day today and I hope you all come to visit me soon, before I am gone for awhile again. I miss everyone and hope I didn't piss anybody off.

LOve to all, and to all Love.
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Monday, November 28, 2005

Michael Jackson Impersonator

Whilst in the kitchen making dinner and singing I'm just a love machine, I decided to add a twist to make Lynnie laugh, ( like she wasn't already from watching her fat mother gyrate to a silly song)
The voice of Michael Jackson eminated from my throat. Now for the past half hour I have been making my three lovely children collapse in giggles as I gyrate more and add a flare to the flick of my wrist and impersonate Mr. Jackson extrememly poorly while singing such songs as This little light of mine, I'm just a love machine, and amazing grace with a bit of scottish accent to make it even funnier.
I am in a fine mood! The girls say " mo oom, " and I say. " I ain't yo momma, you momma left cuz she went crazae." They just laugh and giggle heck I even got a snort or two!!!!

Sunday, November 27, 2005

Not much to say really

Well I am not sure what it going on. My computer seems to be just a bit under the weather,
I have no indicator for where my line is. It just pops up every now and then
something is going on here, maybe it is blogger and not my computer because I wasn't having this problem at the other sites.
Well as I said I don't really have a lot to say. Just have to go look for a job tomarrow .
Say some prayers for me that I will find a good job and will get hired to do it!!!!
I better get off her before my puter takes a dump.
Have a great day everyone:)

Friday, November 25, 2005


Well there are a few things going on here.
My sister Vicki and her husband Brian are coming over tomarrow on their way home. They are bringing their dogs Cae Cee and Rya to met Boceaphus. ( Bo c fuss) . My neice just went home cuz she missed her family. It was so cute the way she said it too. And my daughter Lynnie went with her to spend the night at her aunt and uncles. M and Lynnie get along really well and like to spend a lot of time together.
My electicity is paid thanks to an angel and I was able to buy a car today through another angel and friend who sold me the car for 100.00 less 7.00 he owed me. He also gave me gas money because there was only a quarter tank in the car. I got a child support check for 110.00 that enabled me to buy the car. Now I just have to get it titled to me and get tabs which I will be able to get because of another angel. My moo borrowed her part of the rent from my sis so that will get dropped in the drop box tomarrow. So right at the moment things are going very well. My family has been gifted with angels who are working double time. I know there will be a time when I can do something for them too.
I know that I have angels now because that is what I have put out into the universe. What you put out there comes back to you.
Now I will be able to buy Sierra a pair of shoes so she won't have to wear mine and I can have my shoes so that I can go look for another job by pounding the pavement. I don't know why but there aren't many places around here were you can apply online for a position. Believe me I have applied to all the places I could online. I never hear anything back. I have applied for McDonalds and Taco Bell and places like that too when ever my car was running.
Since my car broke down two weeks ago I haven't been able to get anywhere.
So now, YAY!!! I will be hitting the road tomarrow after I get the new car titled to me and tabbed. It is an Oldsmobile, Cutlass Ciera. Belly will get a kick out of that!!! Anyway, I need to go to sleep because I have to get up early to get some stuff accomplished. Oh wait I forgot, I sleep all the time. All day and all night. That will be my next post........
Everyone have a fabulous day!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
December third will be my one year bloggerversarie, remember a few weeks ago when I said it was almost here!! Well it is even closer now!!!!!!!!!!

Thursday, November 24, 2005

Angels Among Us

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My girls and I have an angel. I will not mention the person by name as they wish to remain anonymous. I will tell you that this angel has saved me some worry. This is an angel that has allowed us to keep our electricity on during these cold months.
Thank you to our angel. Every time I turn a light on I will Thank you. Every time I am able to cook a meal for my children I will Thank you. Everytime I open the fridge and feel the cold air I will Thank you. Every time I am able to take a nice hot shower I will Thank you. Everytime I turn on my dishwasher, washer, or dryer, I will Thank you. Every time I come in from the cold to a nice warm home I will Thankyou. Every time I look at my children enjoying a hot meal I will Thank you. Every time I see them warm and rosy from a shower or bath I will Thank you.
Every time they come home from school and are warmed the moment the come through the door, I will Thank you. You may not hear me everytime. But know that it is true and I am saying it out loud. THANK YOU ANGEL.

Wednesday, November 23, 2005


Lady luck is all sold out and I got to the store to late.
I don't know how much longer I will have internet or a roof over my head.
My car is gone. I had two choices. Pay for it to be towed and then for it to sit in the tow yard. Or give the piece of shit to the tow company. Bye bye pos car. Not upset about this at all. I hated that car.
L & I is messing around again and it is fucking with my life severely.
Rent is coming up again, electric is over due and so is cable. Soooo you guessed it. Bye bye cable. Maybe electric and if I don't get a check real soon. Bye bye apartment hello homeless shelter. No way. I will make my brother and my sister take my kids and I will bounce around. There is no way that my kids are sleeping in a shelter for even one freekin night. I will sell my soul to the devil first. Which is kinda hard considering I don't believe in Satan. I will sell everything I own befor I let my kids loose the roof over their head. So therefore. Duh I just thought of it. Bye bye computer. I don't know how much I can get for it. But something is better then nothing. Right. Right. Shit. This really sucks.
I think I need to say all the things I am thankful and grateful for. I might be thinking things are bad, watch what happens though as I count my blessings, never having bought lady luck in my life.
2) We are all healthy.
3) Family
4) Friends in abundance
5) Food in the cupboards
6) A fireplace
7) lots of warm cats and dogs to snuggle up with
8) Plenty of blankets too
9) A friend and two family members live in the same complex so if we lose power we can still keep food refrigerated, take showers, do laundry and cook.
10) Even though we will more then likely loose cable we still have movies we can watch.
11) We did not loose everything like those who went through the hurricanes.
12) Love
14) Forgiveness
15) A positive attitude
16) The power to do something if I just put my brain to work
17) I can think
18) I can see
19) I can walk on my own two feet. ( Snowvhites mom just lost her left leg from the knee down and right foot from the heel pad out.)
20) I can hear with both ears
21) I believe everything will be fine
22) I am greatful to God for all of these gifts and the ability to see them even when I want to be blind to them and just feel sorry for myself.
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Thank you Lord for all that you have given to me and my family and my friends. Lord please give strength to those who need it and vision to those who are blind in their soul. Lord please help those who need you. Please heal those who are ill. May all who are suffering feel your presence and know your love.
Thank you Lord for the bounty which we recieve every single day that we breathe.

Tuesday, November 22, 2005


Wouldn't it be wonderful if labels actually spoke the real truth and were not printed with every lie they are allowed by law.
And with that thought. Wouldn't it be great if people came with labels of their personality traits. You know you see this beautiful person walking toward you. ( whatever your idea of beautiful is) But they have a label on their shirt that says they are a jealous freakazoid.
Or they are a control freak. Or they have co depedant issues. Or they are just cruel or abusive. Yes I know this works for ugly people too. ( Whatever your idea of ugly is). But I am trying to make a point here.
You see a not so attractive person walking toward you and it says right on there label that they are the closest thing to a soul mate you can get to on earth. They are your forever love. THE ONE. But you , yeah you. Are just to shallow to let it happen. Because the package isn't pretty you keep walking. Its kinda like food. Most often the stuff that looks so freeking awesome is sooooooo bad for you. Full of all the bullshit you just don't need.
But that fabulous salad just gets ignored. Not that it isn't beautiful in its own way. Its just that most of the time, the fatty salty stuff hits the spot. You don' t want the healthful salad with all its nutrion that will sustain you. You want the candy and the pie and cake.
Well I am here to tell you gentle people. Life is full of fat and salt and sugar.
I would rather have the nutrion. Give me some one in my love life with substance. Some one who has a sense of humor and gets mine. Some one who can laugh at life and himself and his foibles. Give me some one who is smart enough to look at me and know how great I am. Give me someone who is kind and loving and has all the qualities I am looking for. I don't care what package he comes in. I will love him all the same.
I might even put a little Ranch on him!!

Sunday, November 20, 2005

No Preservatives

In life there are no preservatives except in most food. Wich I always try to avoid just in case somehow my creamation is neglected and I am buried ( shivers) I don't want to be like a twinkie, I do not feel it is neccasary to have a corpse with a shelf life of 100 years. Anyway, as I was saying..
There are no preservatives in life. You cannot say, can your teenage hormones to be later opened at a much more convienient time. Like say 25. Or hell preserve a little for when your 60 and could really use a good dose of getting excited because the wind blew the right way.
There is no way to preserve the smells that go with a family vacation. You are lucky if later sometime a certain scent triggers a great memory. I know when people crossed over are visiting me because scents I associate with them waft up my nose and into my brain and right down into my heart and soul.
But these things cannot be canned and put on a shelf , labeled and then years and years from now, brought down by great great relatives of the future and experienced first hand the way we did. I mean wouldn't it be cool if there was a store house of canned experiences in Jars and flasks and boxes somewhere where we could go and open them and experience a day from 1722. Just think of how awesome that would be. The only things we have are written history. And how much of that is changed from the actual event. I mean think about it.
The way gossip and stories are told in your own experience, I often wonder what "REAL" history would be. Was Paul Revere running in fear? Did Abe Lincoln stutter when he spoke all those eloquent speaches? Did George Washington really have wooden teeth? What would those people say to us today if they could? What story would they tell? This brings me to what is it that I want people to know and to remember about things in my lifetime. Or about me even. What do I want my grandchildren to know about me? What do I want my greatgrandchildren to learn about when they learn the history of their world and they are learning about this time?
Hmmm. This I will need to think about carefully.

Friday, November 18, 2005

Flavors of your choice added free

It is amazing to me what big companies get away with.
The way things are advertised and the way they actually look or hold up once you get them home.
I kinda feel like that is what happend when I decided to cross over to this side to experience life. Like some door to door salesman came to me and convinced me that my soul needed to see things, and feel things, and hear things. That for the goodness of my being I needed to come here and suffer. That it would be the very best experience and I could come home at absolutely anytime. That when it was all done and said I would never be the same and I would be wiser then all my peers.
Can I sue???
Probably not huh.
Oh well I guess I will just have to stick it out like a kid away at camp.
Hello mother.
Hello father
Here I am. At. Camp Idontwanna.
I crack myself up sometimes.
Is anyone laughing? No. Me either.
Well I guess I don't really have much to say today.
Just deep in a jungle of twisted thoughts like vines reaching out to snare me.
I think I am going to blog hop and see if anyone has anything funny to say.
I need a laugh or two or ten.
Love ya all.
I think that salesman went to live with lucifer. you know, his father.

Thursday, November 17, 2005

New and Improved Formula

I have come to a conclusion.
I need a new and improved formula for operating this thing I call my life.
I need to sell my pos car and get a new one. That will take some prayers since it is a pos and I need someone to buy it who can fix it and who can still give me at least 400.00 for the thing. I need to get my ass back in school. I had checked it all out, sent in for grants and stuff and then I let it drop and just forgot about it. ( fof)
I need to get another job. Even if it is just over the holidays it would help. A lot!
I need to stop adopting animals and the like. Last night I inherited three more goldfish, Moo put them in her fish tank though. Lucky she just brought it home. Seems it was meant to be.
I need to stop helping everyone but myself. I need to help me and then work in the rest of the world. I had that ass wackbards for a long time.
I need to be more clear with my words. I have discovered that sometimes I speak in such a way that most people do not understand what I am trying to convey.
I need to spend even more time with my kids. Just being in the same house does not count.
We need to play games and things like that. I hate board and card games so this is not easy for me to do, but I have come to the conclusion that it is important for my kids. There for I will swollow my dislike for Parker Brothers and Cards and I will play games with my kids.
I have decided that I need to reevaluate much more of my life. My beliefs and my standards alike.
It seems that I am attracted to some men who others would view as Seedy. Or worthless. You know the underdog. The guy from the wrong side of the tracks. The bad ass dude who aughtta be in prison. I am attracted to other types of men. Nerds, or geeks really get me hot. Just as hot as the guy in leather riding a Harley. Just the word Harley makes me Hot. I know TMI Queen. T M I.
There will be more posts like this, I am trying to figure some stuff out. So if you don't want to read, then don't feel like you have to just because you love me.
I will understand. Because I love all of you!!!

Tuesday, November 15, 2005


I am
Worn out
Sometimes used like a door mat
Sometimes a screamer
Often more patient then I really feel inside
Stressed out
Great in bed
A sexy bitch
A softy
A quick learner
Wild sometimes
Sometimes *oddly enough* shy
Crazy sometimes
Going crazy
A great cook
A divine spark of god, amd so are you, and you, and you...............
Wise at times
Prone to jealousy
A great friend
Tired and
Easy to anger when tired
Often longwinded
Sometimes hurtful without knowing it or intending to be
Sometimes to blunt
A person who loves to hear about drama and gossip, I just don't want to be a part of it.
Thankful, therefor, for Jerry Springer.
Missing something
Missing someone
Full of desire
An Earth Mother Goddess.
Kind hearted
Going to bed now.
Goodmorning , Good evening, and Goodnight.

Monday, November 14, 2005


I am so sore. My back hurts bad.
Jen got her apartment. In the same building as me. We went and bought couches today. Okay Jen bought couches, Rent a center is coming to get the other couches tomarrow. So Anyway.
Our day started very early. First we went to my old city and got the kids bunk beds. Then we went to a bunch of thrift stores. Then we went to Lowes, because we need stuff to make the kids bunkbeds into bunkbeds. Then we came back here after we finally found two couches. Then I put in dinner, then we went to pick up the beds after Jen made sure she had the apartment. After we got the couches we then struggled to get Jens couch into her apartment, we had to get Tommy, then we had to get the door off the hinges because the freeking couch was to odd shaped to go through the freeking door.
We finally get the couch into the apartment, then it took me, Jen, and Tommy to put the door back on. Then we had to still get my couch into my apartment. On the third freekin floor.
Man I tell ya. The day just gets better. Jen, Sierra, and I all got the couch to the first landing. Where we got it stuck. My brother who lives in the same complex couldn't be bothered to help at all. So there we sat. I called my friend D, ( the princess's fiance) and he came after work and man handled the damn thing up three flights of stairs. I was worried that he would hurt himself.
I really hope he didn't. He got it all the way up to the top landing and then Tommy got back and helped him. At first D thought that the couch would not go in. But he and Tommy managed to get it in the door and down the hall and then into the livingroom. I love them both so much for helping like that. Especially D. In the last 20 years he has been on heck of a friend. I can honestly say he is one of the few friends that I have that I know I can count on, and he knows he can count on me. We have really been there for eachother in the past. I need to do something special for him. Can't do it tomarrow as I have bunk beds to put together and Jen to help clean or whatever. This is going to take some planning on my part. When he leasts expects it. There I will be with some great surprise!!!! Ssshhhhh T if you read this post, don't tell him I said that.
It is amazing to me, that looking as tired and welfarish as I look today I got hit on twice.
Once by Tommy when I ran into him at Fred Meyer. And then again when I got back to the complex a guy in the parking lot was whistling and smackin his lips. Then he asked me if he could help me bring in my groceries. I said no thankyou, and he said he would just WATCH me walk away then. He was good looking and all I could think was, DUDE! Are you fucking blind?
I look like shit today and I am always fat and ugly. Anyway. I gotta go to bed now.

Sunday, November 13, 2005


I do it to my fucking self
I put myself in these fucking situations
I do not need this right now
I do not need for my mother
to be pissed off at me because I am helping a friend and said friend has been sleeping on moms side of MY bed while said mom was gone 300 MILES AWAY. This is ridiculous. I do not deserve this shit. I do not deserve to be treated this way. I will not put up with being yelled at for NO FUCKING REASON.
I am 34 goddamn years old. I pay the fucking rent. I pay the fucking bills. My friends know this, my sister knows this. As they are the ones I go to when I need to borrow money for situations like today when I had to get Bo to the vetrinarian.
Its not like Jen is going to be here for very fucking long.
Jesus christ my lord and savior, goddess divine mother.


7 Cats
4 Dogs
1 Parakeet
2 Cockatiels
4 Fish
1 Anole
A passle of crickets to feed Anole
1 Mom
1 Good friend
3 kids
1 Me
Things that belong to me
4 Cats
2 Dogs
1 Parakeet
2 Cockatiels
1 Anole
A passle of crickets to feed the anole
4 fish
3 kids
1 mom
1 good friend
Things that belong to the 1 good friend
2 Cats
1 BIG Dog
1 Me
3 Neices
Things that belong to my Mom
1 Dog
1 Cat
1 Me
3 Grandkids

Dog food $22.00
Rent $650.00
Never lonely Priceless

Friday, November 11, 2005

Blahger part Two

Don't know what it wrong with me. I can't seem to shake the sleepies.
Of course I am taking a sleep aid. Its not helping me get to sleep it is just making me stay asleep. I need to take it way earlier then an hour before I want to sleep as it is still taking me hours and hours to get to sleep.
Anyway, I didn't get up until 12:00 today. The kids didn't have school of course because it is Veterans Day... THANKYOU TO ALL OUR MEN AND WOMEN WHO GIVE/GAVE SO MUCH OF THEIRSELVES FOR OUR FREEDOM AND INDEPENDENCE. THERE IS NO THANKYOU THAT CAN BE SAID LOUD ENOUGH OR LONG ENOUGH OR ANY MULTITUDE OF TIMES TO EXPRESS HOW GREATFUL THIS COUNTRY IS FOR YOUR DEDICATION AND HARD WORK. THERE ARE NO WORDS TO EXPRESS THE SORROW FELT BY THIS NATION FOR THE LOSS OF LIVES SPENT FIGHTING FOR WHAT THEY BELIEVED IN.THANKYOU, THANKYOU, THANKYOU, THANKYOU, AND THANKYOU. MILLIONS AND MILLIONS OF THANKYOUS.....You know when I was growing up I always felt this huge respect for men and women who served in the services. I never have figured out why, that even at a very young age I felt so strongly that they deserved every respect they could be given. When I was three and half I saluted a soldier that came into the hospital to visit with another child. No one had ever shown me that. No one ever told me about it, I had never seen anyone do it. But I did, and he saluted me right back with a huge smile on his face.
I don't know what it is. There is just something so regal about a soldier male or female. Something indescrible that sets them apart from the rest of us. Is their bravery? Is it their disipline? Is it something that comes over them as soon as they put on that uniform for the first time, and sticks with them even when they are naked? Is it something they were born with? I don't know what it is. But I am sure glad they have it, each and every one. To anyone out there who is in the services, thankyou so very very much. When I sleep I sleep easy knowing that my children are safe because of all of you........

Have a great Veterans Day everyone. NEVER FORGET!

Thursday, November 10, 2005

Cool Beans

You entered: 3/1/1971
Your date of conception was on or about 8 June 1970.
You were born on a Mondayunder the astrological sign Pisces.Your Life path number is 4.The Julian calendar date of your birth is 2441011.5.The golden number for 1971 is 15.The epact number for 1971 is 3.The year 1971 was not a leap year.As of 11/10/2005 6:48:39 PM ESTYou are 34 years old.You are 416 months old.You are 1,810 weeks old.You are 12,673 days old.You are 304,170 hours old.You are 18,250,248 minutes old.You are 1,095,014,919 seconds old.You are 4.9600782778865 dog years old. (You're still chasing cats!)
There are 111 days till your next birthdayon which your cake will have 35 candlesThose 35 candles produce 35 BTUs,or 8,820 calories of heat (that's only 8.8200 food Calories!) .You can boil 4.00 US ounces of water with that many candles.
In 1971 there were approximately 3.7 million births in the US.In 1971 the US population was approximately 203,302,031 people, 57.4 persons per square mile.In 1971 in the US there were approximately 2,158,802 marriages (10.6%) and 708,000 divorces (3.5%)In 1971 in the US there were approximately 1,921,000 deaths (9.5 per 1000)Your birthstone is Aquamarine The Mystical properties of Aquamarine
Aquamarine is often used to experience love and mercy. It is said to help ease depression and grief.Some lists consider these stones to be your birthstone. (Birthstone lists come from Jewelers, Tibet, Ayurvedic Indian medicine, and other sources)
Jade, Rock Crystal, BloodstoneYour birth tree is
Weeping Willow, the Melancholy
Beautiful but full of melancholy, attractive, very empathic, loves anything beautiful and tasteful, loves to travel, dreamer, restless, capricious, honest, can be influenced but is not easy to live with, demanding, good intuition, suffers in love but finds sometimes an anchoring partner.There are 45 days till Christmas 2005!The moon's phase on the day you wereborn was waxing crescent

HERE is a LINK!!!!!! Thanks for the reminder Jerzee!!!

Wednesday, November 09, 2005

So much going on

Yesterday I got a puppy!! His name is Bo Duke. Cuz I already have Daezee Duke. Bo is a yellow lab and he is beautiful. He is four months old pure bred and he was in the paper for FREE!!!! It worked out kinda weird, When I called the lady said some guy was supposed to be coming to look at him, I called about a different puppy that was in the paper and when I was on my way there, the first lady called and said to go ahead and come see the lab. I had just been thinking to myself that I really wanted a lab, that is what I have been searching for in the paper for the last three months. So I went to her house which was oddly about two blocks away from the other puppy. And when I went in and up tp the kitchen Bo ran from under the table right into my arms. He is perfect! Just the right size and age to not be a threat to my little dogs or to my kittens. And he will be the right size when he grows up. And he is a lab.
He is also a poop machine!!!!! I can't keep up with him! I absolutely adore him though and so do the kids, my daezee has no problem with him and Moos daisy is slowly warming up.
I also got Buddah back last night. K and G couldn't keep him after all so at Michealas request and Buddahs in a dream to me, He is here. Yes I said that right. I had a dream that Buddah wanted to be with me and I called Katie, she can't call me she doesn't have long distance. And she said Denise that is so weird. I need you to take him. It wasn't weird to me, and neither was Bo running to me. IT freaked out his previous owners because Bo had been hiding from everyone and anyone that came to there house. I haven't seen that behavior at all so far. He is very friendly and wants to sniff everyone. But they were genuinly surprised that he ran right too me just upon sight. He made it very obvious that he wanted to go with me. And I wanted him very much so I brought him home. Two new animals in one day, WHEW. I told them all there would be NO MORE coming!!!!! I have a zoo! Moo has a dog and a cat. I have two dogs four cats three birds, a fish tank and an anole. that is a total of three dogs and five cats in a two bedroom apartment. Belive me it is a battle every day to make sure it doesn't stink in here!!!!!! We are clean people. well the kids are working on their cleanliness. They have a ways to go yet. So far it is going pretty well. I just hope Bo doesn't explode from eating so much, and eating god knows what. I am not used to a dog that can stand on its hind feet come almost to my hips, daezee stnads on her hind feet and comes maybe to my knee. Same with Moos Daisy. To keep them seperated we call them Duke and Mai. Poor Daezee she knows her middle name better then her first. Its like she really is from the south:)

In all that I forgot to mention that on the way home from getting Bo, my car went tits up for good. I don't even know whats wrong with it, but Jen had to come and get me. I am glad she was meeting me at my house anyway. She was already basically to my house when I called her. Some construction guys had to push my car into the Safeway parking lot. I need to go and get it towed home. Anyway, Jen moved in for a few days because she finally left Chadfuck. He actually had the balls to try to control her to the point of threating to call animal control if she left and didn't take Kilo ( her pitbull) and her cats with her right then and there.
So G and K went and got Kilo and took him to their neighbors house. THe guy is a pitt fanatic and will take excellent care of Kilo until Jen can get him back or until the day Kilo is an old man and dies. Anyway, Its great having Jen here and knowing she is safe. Hopefully she will be able to get an apaprtment here. My neighbor moved out yesterday and that is a one bedroom apartment. It would be perfect for her.
I called my friend Sharon she is not doing so hot. She needs some prayers, she needs to have surgery on her knee and she is having problems getting insurance to cover it. Please pray for her.. I would like to do another prayer list. So please leave your requests in comments or via email. I would like to publish the list on Sunday.
****Have a bright beautiful day everyone****

Tuesday, November 08, 2005


So far today I have, cleaned my house, done three loads of laundry, cashed a small child support check. ( HOLY SHIT I ACTUALLY GOT ONE) Went to the pet store were I spent too much money on kids pets. They all needed something. And then I went to rent a center and talked to them. They lowered my payments as I may not be keeping the couches to much longer ,they want me to be able to keep them so they will continue to give me a lower rate. Then I went to my sisters house and left a gift for her there.
Then I came back towards home stopped at Fred Meyer just for milk, ketchup and cat litter and ended getting a bunch of other stuff too. I needed more food in the cupbpoards. Then I came home and took the doggies for a walk. They were very excited to get out of the house. I ran into Tommy. He really is a nice guy. Just very weird. He asked if I was okay because yesterday I had asked him if he would take me to the hospital if I needed to go. My stomach was really bothering me bad. It isn't so bad today so far though so I think I will hold off a bit longer and try to get some kind of medical insurance of some kind. I just can't afford a big Doctor bill right now along with everything else. Anyway, I did all of that without taking my cell phone. I never leave it home. I just needed to get away from it. I don't know why. Usually that thing is stuck to me. I just don't feel like dealing with it or anyone today. I am grumpy and in the mood to be alone. I guess I should make sure that nothing important is going on though. Well everyone have a fabulous day and don't worry be happy. You know I always like the saying have a coke and a smile and shut the fuck up. Better then don't worry be happy. The other just has a certain ring to it.......

Monday, November 07, 2005

Does anybody know what this is?

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SPELL CHECK. Does anyone know the propper way to spell herum, as in many wives.
Or many chicks to screw????? I can't remember how to spell it and spell check pops up with herring and that just is not it. fishy as it is!!!!! ( lol) That was probably only funny to me and my twisted little pain filled mind.. HEE HEE HEE.

Sunday, November 06, 2005


Mayor: Sever Thumbs of Graffiti Artists
By Associated Press
RENO, Nev. - Las Vegas Mayor Oscar Goodman has suggested that those who deface freeways with graffiti should have their thumbs cut off on television.
Goodman, appearing Wednesday on the "Nevada Newsmakers" television show, said, "In the old days in France, they had beheading of people who commit heinous crimes.
"You know, we have a beautiful highway landscaping redevelopment in our downtown. We have desert tortoises and beautiful paintings of flora and fauna. These punks come along and deface it.
"I'm saying maybe you put them on TV and cut off a thumb," the mayor added. "That may be the right thing to do."
Goodman also suggested that whippings or canings should be brought back for children who get into trouble.
"I also believe in a little bit of corporal punishment going back to the days of yore, where examples have to be shown," Goodman said.
"I'm dead serious," said Goodman, adding, "Some of these (children) don't learn. You have got to teach them a lesson, and this is coming from a criminal defense lawyer."
"They would get a trial first," he added.
Another panelist on the show, Howard Rosenberg, a state university system regent, responded by saying that cutting off the thumbs of taggers won't solve the problem and Goodman should "use his head for something other than a hat rack."


Tipsy Post

Well I am just a wee bit tipsy. THere may be a few typos in this post.
My sister graduated from medical assisting this evenning. I am so profoundly proud of her. I had tears in my eyes the whole ceremony. CONGRADULATIONS SIS!!!!!!!! AND YAAAAYYYYYYY YOU DDI IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

We surprised her after word at Azteca's man they make some kick ass food!!!
Then we dropped the kids off with a sitter and went to the local gay bar to really celebrate. We had a lot of fun and a lot of laughs. One of our friends that we all knew was gay finally admitted that he could possibly be. As he was flirting voraciously with a male friend of his. This was so good to see. I am so happy for him that he has accepted this part of himself. He asked me if I see him differently then I did before. " Um. NO!" I am proud of him for finally doing what will make him a happier man. I wish him all the best in the world and I hope he has a blast with the rest of hhs night... Man I can see the typos and I am just to wiped to go back and coorect them. Sheeshh.
ANyway, I have decided that i am going to give up my beautiful new couches.
I need to use that money to make payments on a car that will actually run and go were it is supposed to go and not try to kill me and my precious cargo. When it rains the windows fog up really bad and when its cold it is frezing. I have no heat and no defrost. It needs another tire on the left side now, the uh thingy, shit, um its a thin little paper like thing that keeps the oil from leaking out, well that needs to be replaced. And the gas float needs to be fixed and and and and. So I figure I will trade the royal piece of shit in for a lesser piece of shit. As longas it is used I will be able to make 100.00 to 150.00 payments a month. I need to think about needs right now and not wants. I do need a couch but I can make do with another used free one until I find a good paying job. I have a feeling that my mom is gonna wanna move out. She sounds so happy being down there in her home town right now. Its like talking to a different person. If she does that I wish her all the happiness in the world. I really don't want her to do that though. I really like having her here. This is getting really long and I need to go to bed it is almost 3 am. Have a fabulous day eveyone and wish me no hangover.......

Friday, November 04, 2005


Hello there wonderous people!
Today is a good day. So far I haven't gotten any bad news. There are two hours left to the day. I think maybe I will not answer my phone for the next two hours. My grandma made it through surgery okay, they did a five way bi~pass. They said she should recovery quickly. My friends mom is doing much better, her family thanks everyone very much for their prayers and positive thoughts, they worked!!!! Terry will be loosing her feet, but as her family knows her feet are a big pain to her and her hands have been spared. Terry will not really mind the loss of her feet. As long as she can power shop and color her pictures she will be all good!!

Amanda is writing me a report about Hurricane Katrina and she has to include what it might be like to survive such a catastrophy.
The losses and the experience itself. From an economical standpoint as well as an emotional standpoint. She has to include pictures. The report must be at least four pages long with at least two and half pages worth of writing. And she cannot repeat herself. My goal with the report is that she will see that it is nothing to make light off. People lost their lives and homes and family members and friends. So much. So much is just gone.
It makes me so mad that my kid would lie about something like that. She lied to get out of having to do homework. Well now she had more then school work to do.

Thursday, November 03, 2005

Ramblings of a madd Queen

I cannot believe this stuff. I get woken up today during the first nap I have taken in years ,by the phone. It's my mom, she called to inform me that my cousin Jeff did it again. Ut oh what now? I said this half jokingly. Hmm, no joke here folks my stupid fucking cousin decided to hold two of his teenage brothers friends hostage after a Halloween party. He tied up the boy to a chair (17) and beat him up, he sexually assualted the girl ( also 17) and then slashed his own wrists and told them about his problems. I don't know what the hell is wrong with him. The paper reported that as he was hearing the charges against himself he sat with his head hanging down shaking it back and forth. As if he couldn't believe he did those things. God only knows what provoked him to do this. I think I am going to go and try to see him. I want to talk to the knucklehead and see just what the fuck was going through his head as he tortured those poor kids. Jeff was the closest in age to my sister and I, He and his brother Mike. Jeff and I were really close as kids and teens. I just want to know what the fuck is wrong with him that he would do something like that.
He already spent 9 years in prison for damn near killing a man with an ax handle. The man was trying to break into Jeffs house. Jeff has a severlly bad temper. He is not one to take anything lying down. Trying to break into Jeffs house is a suicide mission. The would be thief was the one who picked up the ax handle to begin with, Jeff just took it from him and beat him to the punch so to speak. problem was, Jeff didn't know when to quit, the dude almost died, he was in surgery for 11 hours at Harborview. He lost sight in one eye and his head will never be the same. This all happend after Jeff was severely injured in a motorcycle accident, he flew off a bridge and landed on an embankment of logs. He laid there for almost two days before someone found him. He was almost dead. His mind has never been the same since. As a member of his family I can say we all love Jeff. We all care about what happens to him, we all care that his actions have scarred two teens for life. Hopefully the people around them will help them to be survivors and not victims. I hope they have strong support networks. They will need them in the coming months when they have to testify in court against Jeff. I hope that my cousin will get the help he needs and that he will realize their are people out here in this big world that do love him and will stand by him even though he fucked the big dog with this horrible decision.
The next call I got was from Amanda's counselor.
She called to ask me if our family needed anything. Um ...huh?
I asked her why she would call me and ask me that. She said that Amanda had told her that we survived hurricane Katrina, that she had a twin sister and that her father had died in a drowning accident. That her little sisters didn't have any shoes and all this other bullshit. So I had to set the record straight.
And apparently Amanda has been getting out of assignments by saying she just couldn't concentrate because the memories of Katrina.
By the time I am done with her she will have survived the rath of something much more powerful then a hurricane. MOM