Well I got a job, I am now a telephone solicitor again.
I feel terrible. I feel like I have taken a step back in time.
I know I should be grateful that I found a job. And I am. I am grateful for the money, I am grateful that I will be able to pay my bills and put gas in my car and get the kids at least one gift for Christmas.
I really never ever wanted to do this kind of work again though. And I can't help but be disapointed in myself.
This is just all together to depressing.
And now. Derek has possibly made a new and better friend. He has met a woman and I have been ignored for the last few days.
This really sucks. This really really really sucks.
Sorry to all those who are used to me being positive. I just don't have it in me right now. I am so disgusted with myself.