Sunday, July 31, 2005

Prayer list and update

Don't forget to leave me a comment or send me an email with the names of those who need a prayer or positive energy sent their way. So far no one has sent anything in. So I am extending the deadline out til Wednesday. List to be published Friday.. Come on people I know we all know someone who could use a prayer.

****Not feeling well at all. Very dizzy, bad fever, something that is going around the house.
Not ignoring anyone. Love to all.

Saturday, July 30, 2005


The band at Rocko's was indeed awesome.
The gals name was Polly and she could fuckin blow. Her voice was amazing. And I told her so. Polly was very cool. Very Janis Joplin without all the harsh and edge.
J and B ended up not going with us, B got sunburned really badly yesterday at work and wasn't feelin so great. Devry was there his kick in the pants self. I guess moo told him that he had three adoring fans in herself, myself, and T's self. She is right. Devry is one fabulous person.
Moo had words with Derek,. Derek and I where then up until the butt crack of fuckin dawn discussin things. We are good with our friendship the way that it is. I am not in an I am in love with him faze right now though. I know I will be again at some point. But right at the moment I am scoping out other possiblities. Even though that doesn't really make Derek happy. He loves me, he doesn't want to be an ass to me the way he gets to be when he is with someone. He believes it would never work. I believe it would work great. Thats how we feel and we both except that about the other. I know I want him to always be my friend and love me. I don't want to hate him ever and I don't want him to hate me ever. Also I am sooooooooo not ready for a relationship. The very thought of it makes my blood freeze. Yes I want to sleep next to a man and hold him and he hold me. Yes I want the companionship that comes with a good mate. Yes I want to be cherished. BUT. I don't want anymore wounds to my soul. I don't think my heart can hold another stitch. I don't want to give myself to some one just to have them not appreciate it and stomp on me again. It is SAFE for me to Love Derek the way I do. He himself is not holding me back from moving on. I AM HOLDING ME BACK. I am terrified of being with someone.
I am also not accustomed to thinking of someone before I just go do what ever the hell I want to do. Thinking about having to let someone know, Hey, I'm going to the store, or hey, I'm going to the bar do you wanna go?, or hey, I'm going to the bathroom now, would you like to see the color when I'm done.
I know I shouldn't feel that way but I do. And the fact that I would start walking on egg shells.
Because I wouldn't want to cause a fight. I wouldn't want to upset that person in any way. Because I wouldn't want them to leave for three months or six months, or two nights even.
Getting over that is gonna take some more time I think. Jason trained me well. Too well. Now even when I fight with Derek I sometimes wonder if he is still gonna be there the next time I turn around. He always is, so that helps I think. I don't know maybe someday I will be ready to explore that strange realm of relationships again. I just don't know when. Or with who. I have a feeling that there is someone out there somewhere who will be special enough to take my fear away.

Friday, July 29, 2005

Roasted Chicken

I am making roasted chicken for dinner. I feel like I AM a roasted chicken!!
IT is too FUCKING hot here :(
I can't wait until tonight when it cools off and I am on my way with Derek and J and B to Rocko's. We will be meeting my moo and Devry and Landon and T and hopefully D there at the bar. Sitting in the nice cool dark of the bar just sounds like heaven. Listening to what I am sure will be another great band. OH YEAH baby, oh yeah.
God it is just too freakin hot, can't stand this heat, I wish it was legal to go outside without my shirt on. Hell I want to sit in my house naked!! I might just tell Derek to go away or deal with it and do just that.
He already told me to go ahead and take my shirt off. I just laughed at him, he would like that way too much!!! Hell any guy would, with my huge monstrosities that some call " melons". I tell ya, I got Betty Nugs from here to Texas, which is where I think my boobs were grown before they were delivered to me, over night. ( I swear to GOD)
I really want a breast reduction and as soon as I get some kind of medical coverage or win the lottery, I am gonna get one. I hate my breasts. I always have.... I wish they would like fall off or something and leave nice, perky, little boobies that I can hold with one hand each instead of needing both hands to barely hold on to one. ( big sigh) How did I get to this??? Oh yeah, I am hot and want to take my shirt off. Damn I need a fan or something......

Thursday, July 28, 2005

My very favoritist song right now

This song just speaks to me

Best Of You ~ Foo Fighters

I've got another confession to make
I'm your fool
Everyone's got their chains to break
Holdin' you
Were you born to resist or be abused
Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you
Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you
Are you gone and onto someone new
I needed somewhere to hang my head
Without your noose
You gave me something that I didn't have
But had no use
I was too weak to give in
Too strong to lose
My heart is under arrest again
But I break loose
My head is giving me life or death
But I can't choose
I swear I'll never give in
I refuse
Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you
Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you
Has someone taken your faith
Its real, the pain you feel
You trust, you must confess
Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you
Has someone taken your faith
Its real, the pain you feel
The life, the love
You die to heal
The hope that starts
The broken hearts
You trust, you must confess
Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you
Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you
I've got another confession my friend
I'm no fool
I'm getting tired of starting again
Somewhere new
Were you born to resist or be abused
I swear I'll never give in
I refuse
Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you
Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you
Has someone taken your faith
Its real, the pain you feel
You trust, you must confess
Is someone getting the best, the best, the best, the best of you


I think I might get an interview with the Vet clinic!!!! The eceptionist seemd impressed with my application. YAY!!! That would be a perfect job for me, I love animals, I love people, and I love the idea of helping both people and animals. Derek should be in Tumwater by 5 am. He pulled off the road to sleep for a bit and then he will be headed out again. So he will be here sometime tomarrow morning or afternoon. It depends on if they give him a load to deliver up here or if he just bob tails it. I can't wait to see him. It's only been two weeks. But he is my best friend and it sucks that he is away at all. I keep threatning him that I am going to find a new best friend that doesn't leave me for weeks on end. He just laughs. Which makes me laugh. I called him this morning and gave him a hard time. He was going through some kinda traffic problem so we started talking about accidents.
He told me about an accident in California on the Grapevine, I guess both N and S bound lanes were closed today because of bad accidents on both sides. Sounded pretty narly, he just went through there yesterday so was glad he had already passed it by.
I am going to Rocko's (* home away from home*) tomarrow night. I asked Jaimie if she and Brandon would like to go. So they are probably going to come along. A nice night out for the adults away from the kids. I am sticking with my plan of having one night a week for myself.
AHHHHHH I am soooo excited!!!!!!! I can't wait to see who is performing!!!!!!!

Wednesday, July 27, 2005

Blahger blahs

I am going crazy, I am so bored. Thats bad because one of my favorite sayings is that only stupid people get bored. I am though, feeling rather dumb at the moment.
Tomarrow I will be doing the job hunting thing again, and going to the college. I am tired of living my life this way. paycheck to paycheck. And always being broke in between. YUK! I want to have a career that I will love though. I don't want to go to work every day hating what I do.
I am still working on reading the classics. I am not getting far with it, but hey I am trying.
I'm sitting her at T's right now thinking of all the stuff I need to do when I get home. You know like blessing my house again and doing the dishes and laundry. I left a list for Bellie and Pan to do, If they are smart they will have their chores done when I get back there. Lynnie is with me so she can play with Schmee. ( my niece). Derek should be either on his way up here or on his way to Jackson. He was in Fontana Cali. yesterday afternoon. I know he wants to see J and C when he gets here but I don't know if they will be willing to see us. I don't know if he is going to try this time or not. I know if he is on his way here we are going to Rocko's !!! God I love that place. It's just way cool that soda is 2.00$ and then free refills all night long. So cheap!!
And the music just RAWKS!!!
I wonder who will be playing this weekend?? Hmmm.
Update: my friends J & B are doing good. J is upset that she is no longer pregnant but she has a great attitude about it and she says she feels better then she has for a couple of weeks. They are going to try again in a few months and see how that goes. Thankyou to everyone who prayed for them or sent them well wishes.
This has got me thinking that there are alot of people out there who need prayers and positive energy sent there way. I think it would be a nice thing to compile a list of people WE all know and then set aside a certain time and day to all pray for the people on the list. So I am asking you to leave in my comments or email to me , people or families who need prayers. Next Monday I will publish the list in a post along with a day and time to say a prayer, light a candle, send positive thoughts and energy, meditate, just think love ing things for the folks named.
have a beautimous day everyone!!!!

Tuesday, July 26, 2005


I don't know why I expect to be hired the moment I walk in the door. I know I am going to need to be looking for a while. I have one place to go to tomarrow and a few places to call. I need to get a resume made up. Things have changed since I wrote up the last one three years ago!
I have to babysit one last time tomarrow. T ( the Princess will be done with her extern!!!) ( I am so proud of her it makes me want to cry)
So after that I will be off to the vet clinic to apply as a receptionist. I would soooo love to get that job. I love animals and people, taking care of people for the last few years has made me quite ready to take care of animals for awhile. Then I will be running off to the ECC to see what I might be able to do out there. I would love to eventually be a social worker specializing in the elderly. But who knows where that could lead. Can't wait til Friday!!!! Going to Rocko's again!!!! I just love the music. I hope that Devry can come along again. He is an absolute kick in the pants!!!! As is Landon!! I am sure he will be coming along, as my moo and he are bosom buddies these days. Which is cool. Hopefully T will be joining along. It's just too much fun sitting there listening to great music and laughing our asses off at ourselves. Devery is especially funny. Not only his own antics but watching his face when T dances with a chair or does other things to drive him crazy. Quite hilarious actually. I need to get a camera so I can take pics to post:)

Onward and upward

I am off to go job hunting, I cannot live on 630.00 a month. I haven't been cleared by my Doctor to go back to work, but at this point I am fed up with the bullshit. So off I go. Wish me luck!!!!!

Monday, July 25, 2005


I think I got in a little over my head!!!!
Interview by NJ
1)If you had to give up either your dog or your cat, which would choose? Why?
^Well I wouldn't want to give up either one, If I absolutely had no choice I would give my cat to some one I know. That way I could later get him back. ^
2)Which movie star do you have a crush on? Would you run away with him if you had a chance?
^* Oh Just kill me why don't you!!!* Too many choices, Of movie stars I will have to go with Tim Curry. I absolutely love that man. If he wasn't available to run away with though I would pick Alan Alda. Yes I know he's old now, but who cares!!^
3) Do you cry to much or laugh to little?
^I cry when I want to and I laugh all the time!!!^
4) If you could change one thing about your appearance what would it be?
^I can change it, I'm working on it! Lost 54 pounds in the last five months!! Why does it have to come off so slowly???^
5) What was the last naughty thing you did? Do you regret it? Or do you wish to do it again?
^ The last naughty thing I did was send Derek a dirty text, Yes I would absolutely do it again! And no I do not regret any naughty thing I have ever done.* this is the text I sent* "cock sucker.....get on your knees... cock sucker....I'm easy to please....just give it a squeeze,please don't sneeze...Cock sucker, I'm the queen of cheese . Cock sucker.....get on your knees, just ignore all the fleas. Cock sucker I feel free..." *
If you sing it to the song " Hot Blooded" you won't be able to get it out of your head!!

Interview with Libby
1) If you had never started blogging what would you be doing right now instead?
^ I would be laying in my bed depressed and lonely and miserable. I did that for almost two years. ^
2) What is your favorite color?Why? How long has it been your favorite color?
^ GREEN!!!!!! It is soothing to me, it is also vibrant, and just comfy. Forever!!^
3) If you could live your life differently, what exactly would you do, and would you turn out richer or poorer, famous or not? World traveler, ya-da-ya-da-ya-da...
^ I would not change one thing. I am only 34 I still have the chance to be a world traveler. And I will!!!, I would not want to be famous. Famoous people have absolutely no privacy what so ever. No thanks!!^
4)If you could watch only 1 movie iver and over for the rest of your life, what would it be? And if you could read only one book which would it be??
^ Wow tough question! I am going to say either " The color Purple" or " 50 first dates"
books would be either " The mammoth hunters" or "Memnoch the Devil".
5) If you had to choose what to sell first, most of your old movies, or most of your books which would it be?
^ Which ever gave me the most cash. If I am selling that stuff I must be needing money pretty bad. I have had to sell alot of my cd's to feed the kids at times. It sucked, but that stuff is replaceable, kids aren't.^

Interview by Nech77
1) What is your favorite bagel flavor?
^ Plain actually^ * It's all about what goes ON the bagel !!^
2) If you could change your name, what would you choose ? Why?
^ My initials are T>M>T>X>D>J>B>D>Y. I was adopted, I have the name my moo ( MoM of origin) gave me and the name the hospital gave me ( xenia ) No not zeena, ex en ia) and the name my parents gave me. Add to that two married names. I wouldn't change any part of that. I do not however like the name I go by. Denise. GOD I HATE IT!!!! I would way go by Toni. But at the same time.. eh its hard to explain. I would love for my last name to change again. Someday......sigh^
3) What talent do you wish you had? why?
^ I have alot of talents, I am glad I have the ones I have. I would love to be able to draw and do art like that. ^
4) If there was one thing in one person you could change what would it be? For who? Why?
^ I would love to say that I wouldn't change any one. I can't do it. I would change my ex husband, there are too many things to name. I would make both of them want to see their kids. But Jason I would want to make him positive. He is sooo negative, the world sucks, his world sucks and its the governments fault. It goes on and on and I would make him happy. I would want that for him and the kids.^
5) What is your biggest pet peeve?
^ People who can't friggen drive but are out there on the roads, and freeways endangering others^

Interview with Boabhan Sith
1) I know you say your into wicca, but I also see alot of christian things on your site and in your posts. Why did you get into wicca and whats your stand on it?
^I can't recall haveing said I was into wicca. I know I have said things about goddess and blessing my house and that kind of thing. I have a very different set of beliefs. I absolutely believe in God. Totally, I also believe in Goddess. I believe in prayer and in a more earthy spirituality. God made the earth and everything on it. I believe the earth is alive. It has a pulse, and it breathes. I believe in magic. Not the pull the rabbit out of the hat magic. Indian Shaman kind of magic. I believe that what ever you believe is what gives any thing power. wether it be a spell, blessing, or prayer. God gave us that power. This is an entire long post though so I will address it at another time more fully. Great question Bo!!^
2) IF you could get rid of only one stress and you only had today to decide, what would it be and why?
^I would get rid of the stress of money. By either aboloshing it all together or by giving enough to everyone to be healthy, have enough food, and a place to call home.
If you think about it, money is worthless.^
3) Why did you start blogging and what keeps you blogging?
^ I heard about it on a local news channel and decided to check it out, I came across alot of really cool blogs and then one in particular caught my eye, it was Rathwel's ( god I miss him) I started a blog, actually I have like five or six, I don't even remember. Now I keep bloggong because it keeps me sane and out of my bed. I blog because of all the wonderful people I have met. I blog because it is a release of emotions and thoughts that I can't express out loud.^
4) If you were around during creation and God told you, you could create an animal , what would you creat? what would you name it?
^ I believe we were around during creatiion! Right up in heaven giving our opinion to god about what should be here on this planet and others!! I think I would love to take credit for horses and dolphins. Amazing critters!!!!^
5) If you could change one thing about yourself what would it be?
^ physically I would and am changing my weight. As for everything else about me, I wouldn't change a damn thing!!!!!

Interview by Victoria
1) You have just been contacted that a movie is going to be made about your life. What type of movie would it be and who would be playing you throughout the movie. It could be the same or different people. Describe this movie in detail so I will want to see it.
^ It would be a dramahorrordee, Various people would play me, I think a baby girl of random choosing to play me as a baby, My daughter Lynnie could play me as a little girl, Bellie could play me as an older child, and my Pan could play me as a teenager. I started getting really curvy after that so I don't know who would play me then. I would love to be portrayed as thin so I will go with Julia Roberts to play adult me. Lets see, the movie would go over my moo's getting pregnant with me and having to give me up for adoption, it would chronicle my life and its major events good and bad. Having to put my horse down, having an abortion at 15. Getting beaten by my first husband, emergency surgery to save mine and Sierra's life when I was 7 months pregnant with her. Jason cheating on my at the same time I was in the hospital with that going on. Different stuff I went through with different friends. Being a single mom. Almost dieing when I was three because my kidneys failed. Finding my Moo when I was twenty. Getting to know her and T and S. Finding my two possible fathers. One deceased and one not interested enough to call again. I wouldn't want to watch it!!!!! ^
2) What would you say is the one thing you would most like to change about yourself and why?
^Weight, because I am not comfy being so heavy. It hurts. I want to feel lighter. I don't need to be a stick or anything, I just want to be comfortable.^
3) You have just been given one day to travel anywhere you want and there is no obstacle to prevent you , where would you go and why?
^ Oh wow, the choices are endless..... I would go to Atlantis. Because it is always wonderful to go home again.^
4) If you were to develop a childs toy what would it be, educational, or recreational, color, shape,size, for what age and so forth. Describe fully.
^ I am glad that you clarified that with " childs toy" heh heh.
I would definately want the toy to be educational, but the kids would think it was recreational. I would go with a computer or segga/nintendo/game cube kinda toy. it would be for older kids, and it would be very detailed. The maps would be actual maps of the world and countries and cities and stuff. And the places they would go in the game would be actual places that exist around the world. They would have to learn differnt customs and languages to communicate with others. This would be a game played with other kids from around the world. It would be like one of those sci fi games, but it would be based in reality. Kids would have to go on missions to get certain items. They could pretend to be tomb raiders or lion hunters. Or they could even go into space. They would have no clue they were learning real shit!!!!!
5) Outside of your family, name one person who has inspired and taught you the most in life.
^ Awesome question! There are many actually. Cher, Oprah, Whoopi. Martin Luther King Jr., Elvis, Ansel Adams. People I know personally. Dottie, Vicki, Tim, Leif, Dave, Derek, Jaimie, Katie, Jen, V, Ken, Grant, Ruth, Too many to mention.

WHEW, I think I a made it!!!!!!! LEt me know If I really need to put up the rules again!?!

Sunday, July 24, 2005

A weekend with out kids

Kids are at the cabin, and mom has been out playin!!!!
Friday night went out with my D mom and sister T ( the princess) and Devry. also Anita, her daughter R, and a friend of theirs L. God we had so much fun. An awesome band by the name of breadlineblues was playing. AWESOME!!!! The name of the bar is Rocko's and it's a biker bar. SOOOOOOO much fun. As soon as you walk through the doors it feels like home. We all love it there. So we went back tonight!!! Only minus Anita and her Daughter, and add Dave, I guess he would be the prince since T is the princess.
Derek ( the king) pissed me off tonight. Needless to say I am not accepting his phone calls until tomarrow. I need to go to bed! I will just say that Devry and L were hilarious and the princess was drunk. Dave was a flirt ( as per usual) and we all had a fabulous time.
I got asked to dance a few times. But um. yeah. not gonna happen. I don't dance in front of people. I don't want to be accused of making any one go blind from sheer horror!
Gonna write more later when I can write better.......
Have a beautiful day:)
I was awoken at 6:30 am by my friend ( he is like one of my kids) Brandon. He was at the hospital with Jaimie ( also like one of my kids) Jaimie had a miscarriage earlier in the morning and they had gone to the hospital. The hospital released her and she went home. Brandon said they were home for about an hour and she wouldn't stop bleeding. So they called an aid car and they soomed her back to the hospital where she went almost straight into surgery. He called me back later around 9:30 and said she made it out of surgeryu okay. I know that Jaimie and Brandon are both very upset. She was 14 weeks pregnant, she had just gone to the Doctor on Thursday and got an ultrasound done. They were both so excited. She can get pregnant again yes. But they need some prayers to help them get through this. What ever you believe, please pray. send positive thoughts and energy for them. I am going to see her here in a bit and take her some flowers and love.

Saturday, July 23, 2005


Lots going on, very little time.
I made a phone call. Officer S. is looking into the matter, I just have to do a little sluthing to get her some more information and she is going to investigate him and his wife along with the entire situation.
Have a great day all! I know I will now that this is getting taken care of. Thankyou everyone for your awesome comments and support. Sometimes I don't know what I would do without all of you.

Thursday, July 21, 2005


Thankyou so much everyone who commented to my Dilema post. I appreciate so much the advice and questions to ask myself. I have decided to just let sleeping dogs lay where they are.
If I get involved I will do it all the way. Cuz I am just not a half ass kinda girl.
Not to mention everyone telling me to stay away. I do believe that is exactly what I wanted and needed to hear/ read. I needed to know that it is okay for me to keep tp myself, to think of how it would effect my children. I am not a bad person if I stay out of her life.
Love does not get switched off like some sort of switch. It remains, it always will. For the good of my sanity and the safety of my family. S will just have to figure things out for herself and her daughter.
I will pray for her. Please for her too. This is just so sad. I need to change the subject now to something that really pissed me off today.
My daughter Pan, who is 14, put something that vibrated on my arm. I looked at her, she showed me the object. I grabbed it away from her and asked her where the hell she got it. She told me she got it from the 12 year old neighbor girl A.Pan said that A got the "pocket rocket" from a man named Bob who lives on this street. I said " excuse the FUCK out of me!" She said " he and his wife Bev live next door to Ju****. Okay, so I tell myself. This could be a lie so calm down and don't do anything before you go running around with this machete ready to hack of some poor mans penis.
So the M's got home from the lake and I went on over across the street to ask them about it.
Dad M had no clue what I was talking about so we went in the house to talk to Mom M and A.
A said that she got the "pocket rocket" from Bob. As a late birthday present. Dad M. said okay. My jaw dropped. I heard it thud on the ground. I went numb, and got all warm and not in a good way.
I said A." Do you know what that thing is?" She said " yeah, you put it down there." and she pointed. I got dizzy. Bobs life has been flashing before my eyes ever since that moment. I said ."Dad M what is Bob doing giving something like that to a child?" What the hell?
He isn't doing anything, ANYTHING. He told A she couldn't go over there anymore unless Bev was home. He didn't even ask her if Bev was home when Bob gave her the damn thing.
I am irate. I can't see straight. I want to go over there and kick his balls so far up his ass he will never retreve them. I am not going to call 911. I am going to go down and see a friend of mine at the police station tomarrow though. Just to let her know what is going on. I cannot, will not. Stay out of this.
I have children who live on this block too. I don't have to stay out of it.

Wednesday, July 20, 2005


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Goodbye Mr. James Doohan. Thank you for all the wonderful memories. I just saw that you have passed away. I know your ashes will be rocketed into space. What a wonderful grave your ashes will have. Out among the stars just as was the character you played for so many wonderful years. As a HUGE Star Trek fan I know I am not the only one who will remember you fondly with a smile. Their are two sentences of which I believe you are most famous for. " Beam me up Scotty." Which you would then beam whoever up And " Captain, she can't take much more of this, she's gonna blow." No one could ever say that line quite the way you did. That line now will forever immortalize you.
Enjoy your new view James!


Help! I don't know what to do. Okay that's not entirely true. I am just confused about what I think I should do. Here is the situation.
I have this friend, S. We haven't spoken since last August. I had to kick her out of my house because she was smoking so much pot she was falling asleep with lit cigarettes. She burned holes in many blankets and my couch and a few of her own shirts and pants. Plus she is very unliked by my parents. As a matter of fact they don't like much of anyone I know.For that matter most people I know don't like S either, so at least in that my parents aren't the only ones. Anyway, my three parents came and kicked her out of my house. I know, I know. When S told my dad that I could have kicked her out, he told her, " no, she's your friend and can't do it." Which was true, I just couldn't bring myself to do it.I knew I needed to but I couldn't.( I know that makes me a sissy, I am okay with that.) She has a problem with prescription drugs and then the pot too, I suspected also crank. Anyway, she went and lived with my friend K for a while and then she left there and went to Whidbey Island. It's a very long story actually. To make it shorter I will just say that I spoke to her probably five times and saw her three times after she left my house. I do care about her very much. I also care about her kids, one of which she has managed to get living with her again. I am sure for the money from C's father. Anyway every time I get to the point where I am not thinking about her or thinking that I need to go find her. Someone calls me and tells me what is going on. I need to make it clear that every time in the past I got the feeling that I needed to contact her, or find her it was because she needed me. I have been avoiding that feeling for months now. Trying not to care. She screwed me over enough and brought enough drama and heart ache into my life. She slept with my husband for christs sake! So anyway. ( I thought I was making this short...) I get a call a couple of days ago that S is for sure doing crank. That she was looking to get some through someone a mutual friend knows. This concerns me greatly and I am glad she doesn't live closer because I would have been over there already. I don't think I need to get involved. But I also feel like I owe it to C to make sure she is okay. You know, just show up and see her with my own eyes. I know C would tell me if she wasn't okay and I know S would let C go with me. I love C alot. She and her sister then sisters spent alot of time with me. C told someone that she was happiest in her life whenever she was at my house. That damn near broke my heart. I want to see her very much. But I am afraid that S will drag me back into her world. I don't want to go there. I am so confused about this. Yes, I know I shouldn't be. I should stay away from her. But I feel it, have been feeling it. She needs me to help either herself or C. I have always been the one to handle such things for her. Get men to leave her alone or break up with her. Find places for her to go, Take her kids for weeks on end. I would love to have C here with me. I have the means to go get her. I have the means for her to contact her dad. I know S will let her come with me. I feel like I am banging my damn fool head against a brick fucking wall. I really wish I could talk to someone impartial about this. Everyone around here is partial to me and wants me to stay away from S. Even Derek who is concerned and cares about S told me that it might be best to not go there. WELL. FUCK! Why do you think I have a dilema. Again I say ( begging on knees) HELP!

Tuesday, July 19, 2005

Interview by DL..

Questions and Answers:
1) If there is one dream that you have yet to accomplish, what is it?
I want to own a Harley someday. Actually I want to meet a nice biker guy and ride his Harley! I do want to be able to ride it myself though. I love to be in control of big roaring things....
2) If you could spend a day with anyone of your choosing, who would it be and why?
Thats a tough one. There are alot of people I would love to spend a day with. I am always with my kids so they don't qualify for this question. I see family and friends frequently so they don't qualify either. I would say God, but we spend every day together. I am going to go with Mya Angelou. I hope I spelled her name correctly. She is amazing.We could all benefit from a day in that great ladies presence.
3) If you were to write a book, what would it be about? I will have to say either a fantasy/ scifi. Or a book about my drama filled, rollercoaster, fat chick life.
4) If you became a millionaire, but it had the condition that you had to spend it all in one day,how would you spend it? Awesome question!! I really thought about this alot. I know for sure I would give family and friends enough money to at least make a down payment on a house. I would make sure friends and family and maybe a few strangers in the right place at the right time got brand new cars. Or I would pay off what they owe on the one they already have. I would then give the rest to the " Make a wish foundation.
5) If you could be anything but a person, a plant, an animal, a thing, what would you be?
I thought of this alot too. I gotta go with an Eagle. They are big powerful and fearless. They are magestic and confident. And to top it all off they gots wings man. Whats not to love?!

The rules:
1) Leave me a comment saying interview me please.
2) I will respond by asking you five questions. ( not the same as you see here.)
3) You will update your blog/site with the interview questions.
4) You will include this explanation and offer to interview someone else in the same post.
5) When others comment asking to be interviewed, you will ask them five questions.

Thankyou dl for the fabulous questions. I hope that if someone wants to be interviewed I can think of some great questions like that!!

Sunday, July 17, 2005

WHAT ?????

Okay, I just saw an advertisement for Asian American Television Network. W.T. F? What does that mean? Asian American. Okay, duh, the obvious. But seriously what does that mean. Are people of Asian decent some how less American because they have Asian decendents. Whoopi writes about this in her book. Called geniously . "book",its aswesme check it out!
Any way, she says some things about it that make sense. However I have something to add.
Here in America we have African Americans, Native Americans, And now Asian Americans. I don't know, but quite possibly we have Irish Americans, German Americans, Romanian Americans, Jamaican Americans, Australian Americans. Okay your following. Yes you, I see you... Okay when you go to Asia, are there American Asian Networks for television. When we go to Africa is there a college I can go to and be guaranteed a scholarship because I am Amercican African? If I go to Fiji will I be called, American Fijian???? This makes absolutely no sense. And don't even get me started on the whole Native American thing. I AM NATIVE TO THIS COUNTRY! THERE FOR I AM NATIVE AMERICAN! Just as is any one else is who was born in this country. My forefathers weren't born here though. So god lets see , I would be an Irish, Romanian, German, Itallian, Swedish, French, Indian American. WOW. ( And I missed a few!!)Do you think I can qualify for a scholarship now? I am sorry, but I have alot of friends who are Asian, or of Asian decent, or Columbian, or Irish, or Samoan,. I have friends who are black, and white and every color in between. To me we are all just people. When I look at people I see people. PERIOD. I don't see the neighborhood, or the country that you grew up in. I don't see your ancestors or what they may or may not have done. I see a human being. An individual who has rights and freedoms because of this great country we choose to live in. Denying someone the dignity of being "American" just seems wrong to me. Why do people have to qualify as American by being." from another country, American"? I just think its ridiculous. Thats all. You are HERE. You are an AMERICAN. I mean really think of how all the awesome folks feel who are in the service of this country. To be called something other then American would be an insult. To my thinking anyway. Just my opinion. It may not matter to you, But it sure as heck matters to someone.


What in the world is going on around here? Every where I go people are getting comments on there blogs that are mean. Are folks just in attack mode or what?
I don't get it. If you don't like what you are reading just click the x. Why leave a nasty comment to someone. If you don't like mommy blogs, or if someone is boring to you, or someone hates their husband because he is an ass. Well sheesh just read something else for christ sake. I see blogs all the time that I don't agree with, or that tick me off. I just go to the next one. It takes guts to put your opinion out here for the public to see. And it's not just opinion. It's heart, mind , and soul.

If you don't like me or anyone else. GO AWAY! Don't read blogs then, just write yours and leave the rest alone. Man someone get some ice.

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Saturday, July 16, 2005


According to my stat counter. People searching for such things as plumber blinkies, ass stuffers, and animal penis's are lead to my blog. Man I bet they are surprised when they get here and find none of the above!!!! Too funny. Okay I can figure the blinkies thing, And I believe I did mention something about a penis sometime, somewhere. As for ass stuffers I have no clue. I am curious now however and must make a search of my own. For the number of asses I'd like to stuff may be few. But it would be worth it to find one just right to shut up one ass in particular. Heh heh, Maybe I will torture you all with some pics. I am in a demented mood. Ass stuffers for sale. right here, 9.99. Get yours now. Heeeeeeee heeee heeee.

Friday, July 15, 2005

Sometimes I Wonder What I Was Thinking

1) When I decided it was a good idea to have sex when I was 13 years old.
2) When I figured I would Start smoking. Again I was 13 years old.
3) When I took a drink for the first time. I believe I was three. (No wonder I don't like alcohol)
4) When I decided it would behoove me to get married at 19 and get pregnant on my wedding night.
5)When I brought people into my home to live with me.
6) When I left my kids alone with a drunk.
7) When I went with my mom to Soap Lake.
8) When I got divorced from one abuser just to marry another.
9) Why I ever tried to get either father of my kids to see the kids.
10) When I trusted a certain someone even though all my instincts told me not too. And then was suprised as hell when he hurt my kids.
11) When I let myself get this fucking fat!
12) When I decided that spandex looked GOOD on me when I was in high school.
13) When I decided not to keep taking my birth control and got pregnant with Bellie.
14) When I decided to not take birth control at all after Bellie was born and within a year was pregnant with Lynnie.
15) When I decided to try liver and onions when I grew up. YUK! ( How does any body eat that shit!)
16) When I thought that I was soooo cool. You know I invented grunge right. And while I am at it, you know I invented Goth. And all else that is "cool" in the world right.
17)When I switched from oldies to ROCK AND ROLL BABY.
18) When I went swimming alone at a remote lake.
19) When I lived in a van with my boyfriend for a summer. ( believe it or not that was the best relationship I ever had!!!! And it lasted for three and half years.)( I should add I was like 15 when I met him.)
20) WHen I ran away from my mom without a reason sometimes.
21) When I gave away everything I owned. Ten million times!!
22) When I put the clothes in the dryer for way to long .
23) When I quit smoking for two years and then started up again. Don't worry, I still ain't smoking none.
24) When I decided to be a babysitter for a living. ( not this time T)
25) When I thought that I had it all and was happy for like a minute.
26) When I fell in love.
27) When it didn't last.
28) When I drank that milk that tasted a little funny.
29) When I prayed for you.
30) When I got that one phone call in particular.
31) When I fell in love again.
32) When that failed too.
33) When I fell in love again.
34) And got rejected. This happens to me alot.
35) When I felt so confused.
36) When I loaded my injured horse in that trailer so he could go be put down.
37) When I called my mom a bitch that one time.
38) When I ratted someone out.
39) When I got divorced again.
40) When I tried to help a friend who couldn't be helped.
41) When I gave away that dog named Jennie. God she was the coolest dog!!!
42) When I gave away that cat named Triton. God he was the coolest cat!!!
43) When I quit smoking for 7 months and started up again. ( still not smoking this time)
44) When I thought about going to africa to live with a wild tribe. ( I think I was nine when I wanted to do this.)
45) When I kissed three boys in one day.
46) Those times when I had three somes or more somes.
47) When I took that picture.....
48) When I ate too much and puked. ( I think I was twelve) ( man was I sick!)
49) When I ate too many cheeries once. lets just say I was NOT a happy camper.
50) When I believe that I could see unicorns and pegasus. When I believed that they talked to me and protected me. I miss that.
And what am I thinking now. Now that all of that has past. I wouldn't change one decision. One incident. Not one word would I take back. All of it, every moment is precious, and it is mine. I own it. The good, the bad, and the damn right ugly. I own it all. Every mistake. Each heartache I delivered or received. Every breath, and every dance I didn't dance. Every opportunity missed. Every lesson learned. Its all mine. I am proud of it. I don't want to go back. I want to go on ahead and see what else I can accomplish, what else I can fuck up royally. And own every bit and beat of that too.

Thursday, July 14, 2005


Thankyou, every one for all your thoughtful comments to the post that was here and is now saved as a draft. I have given it to god and I know he will take care of it. Thanks for the reminder's.

Wednesday, July 13, 2005

Just pretend this is a real post

Gone Fishin.

Here's some of my favorite folks to keep you entertained.
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Talented and beautiful Dave Navarro is an amazing man.
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Fred Astaire and Ginger Rogers, can you imagine getting dance lessons from THEM!!!
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James Dean. He needs no other words.
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Sylvester Stalone, He may be shorter then most men but he has got the heart of a lion. Ya gotta love that!
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No matter what I am going through Homer always makes me feel better.
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Chad Kroeger, I am completely in love with this man.......(sigh)......
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Just had to give him one more chance to show his stuff. I love you CHAD!!!!
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GOD I LOVE IT WHEN HE DOES THAT!!!!!!!!! (last one I swear, no really, I swear)
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Vin Diesel, whats not to love?!?!
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Jon Bon Jovi, His wife is one lucky bitch! ( I mean that in a totally non psychotic way.) (heh heh)
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Oh Viggo I'm sorry, did I wear you out?
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Brendan Frasier OH BABY.....OHhhhhh...........
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Gene in no way shape or form compares to Paul Stanley.
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I totally dig budda.
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But this guy named Jesus, well he just rocks!
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This is my all time favorite picture of Jesus, It is the most close to what I think he looks like. This picture means more to me then any other in the entire world.
You see when I was very little I hurt my knee really bad by falling in my Aunt and Uncles fire pit. She carried me inside and put me on the couch, as she left the room to go get some first aid stuff she pointed to a portrait on her wall. It was a portrait of Jesus, just like the one above. She said " you look at Jesus and he will take away your pain." I looked at the painting, I was really hurting and still very young and did as I was told. Suddenly I felt very warm and very loved and wasn't hurting at all. When my aunt came into the room she at first didn't say anything or disturb me in anyway. It startled her that I wasn't crying and I was so lost in the portrait. Quietly she came to my side. I looked at her and said, "I'm okay, Jesus said so."" And he loves me. " Being a very religious person my aunt began to cry. She said with a very shaky and emotion filled rasp in her voice." You are right, he loves you very much and you are okay."
I will never forget that picture, even now when I look at it I can feel a bit of what I felt that day. It has faded a bit over time and years like a mountain fades so slowly into the dust of a valley. It still fills me up. I know I am never alone. NEVER. None of us are ever alone. Especially when we feel the loneliest. He is always there. ALWAYS.
Love ya all!

Sunday, July 10, 2005

Been Busy

Well kinda anyway. I just really haven't felt up to blogging lately. I don't feel well still and I am still not sure why. I got a very sudden headache last night that quickly turned into a raging migraine.(They run in the family)And a few hours later it went away just as suddenly. It was really weird. I didn't take anything at all to make it go away, not even a tylenol. It was really weird because I had the smell of garlic, very strong garlic in my nose during the entire time, Sierra couldn't smell it though. And when the migraine disapeared so did the smell. I will just say, I haven't even cooked anything for a few days so I knew it wasn't in the air either. Very strange.I feel weird today. Just like out of sorts and floaty.
No I am not on anything. I quit taking the morphine days ago because I don't need it right now. Its been at least five days since I took it. So its not that. I really can't explain it at all. Which is weird too. Like I said, I just don't feel well. I have visited a few blogs and left a few comments here and there. The other day I was able to visit everyone. I guess I just want to say. Please do not be offended if I don't visit for awhile. I probably won't be posting for a few days either. I don't know yet, it depends on if I get feeling worse or better. It is taking me a long time to type this. I keep having to go back and delete whole words because they are so garbled. Just not me right now. I can usually type 50 or so words a minute with decent accuracy. Without having to look at the key board and I just can't do it right now. Man I hope you are all doing much better then I am at the moment. I hope that everyone down South gets out of Dennis's path. I haven't checked the news how is that going anyway. Did that bastard turn away? I hope so for so many people's sake........

Saturday, July 09, 2005


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I love all my male blog friends! Haven't meant to leave you out so this is my way of making it up to all of you. Besides I don't know too many women who don't enjoy looking at Drew!!!!!!!!!

Friday, July 08, 2005


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Tell me you do not want THIS man!!

I don't know if its the Bike or the stache, or just that certain look in his eyes. That air of confidence and don't fuck with me. The way he walks or the tone of his voice. All I can say is.

Thursday, July 07, 2005

Oh this man!!!

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This guy just drives me wild. I don't know what it is. I can tell you that being a part of the RHPS phenomena at a young age has warped me forever! I have this fantasy you see.. Um, Er, no I don't suppose you do see. Thats all right forget I said anything. Just let me know if you where ever a part of this and if you too have a strange fondness for men and or women in fish nets and corsets. Heh heh.

Wednesday, July 06, 2005


I have discovered that it is not fun to sleep for only an hour and then get up at the buttcrack of dawn to come and watch your sisters children. At least I can take a nap though huh! Thats what I keep telling myself anyway. I can take a nap here in a bit. I want to try to get some things done for my sister first. I am trying to stay awake after all. Just for a bit. Being able to sleep tonight would be fantastic. I was finally able to read blogs today! Gosh I have missed everyone so much. Now I know I am trully addicted. I didn't get a chance to go back and read on the last few days though. I really wanted to do that. I hate not knowing what everyone is doing. I am just a busy body like that. Gotta know what the world is up to. Bloggin is really good for me. It keeps me out of trouble!!!!
Well I suppose I should go do something other then sit here though. I got here at eight and have been on my sisters computer since and it is now after ten!
Shame on me! I have a book to read and everything. Its called " Green Magic."
It's for the witch in me. (heh heh)
Okay I'm outie, I have something to post later today though when I get home.
Hope you all have a marvelous fabulous spendid day!!! SMOOOSHES

Tuesday, July 05, 2005

No Title

I had so much to say at three a.m.! Now I have forgotten every intelligent or thought provoking thing I had in my head. I knew I should have gotten up. O well. I guess I have learned my lesson.
Went to my brothers house yesterday for a bbq. It was really nice to just sit and visit and do absolutely nothing but run my mouth. The food was delicious. Trinia my brothers lady is an excellent cook these days. Sierra and I ended up brining home their parakeet Buddy. Sierra is thrilled ! There are still a million stars in her eyes . She really, really needed to get another bird after having to give away her other birds. She has his way cool cage fixed up with all his toys,and his mirrors ,and food and water of course. She is siting right next to him where she can just look over and talk to him and include him in on everything.
I am so happy for her!!!!!
I think Buddy needed a friend like Sierra.
I have really enjoyed this time with my daughter. I miss her sisters of course. They are my kids. This has given me the idea though that next time Lynn is staying home with mom for a weekend and Sierra and Amanda are going elsewhere. And of course there will be an Amanda weekend too. We have just had such a blast, going shopping with T and mimi, and going to Sev's . And going to the craft store and making flower pens. We even went to the dollar store and bought planters and semi polished rocks to put the pens in! We each made like 15 pens. I have the most lovely bouquet on my desk! We also made them with feathers too so there is a bit of variety in there. I really did have other stuff to blog about but I forgot what is was. I am working on another story for Secret Smutty stuff. I think I am going to change the the name of that though. Make it something sexier or provocative. Did I spell that right?? hmmmm.
Alright well. Gotta run to the grocerie store before the hungry masses arrive home and want cereal or something else I don't have.

Happy Happy people!!!!

Monday, July 04, 2005


We have our beautiful flag of red white and blue, with brilliant shining stars,
We have a galant and glorious Eagle, who soars above any mans lame ego.
We have our towers of past and present.
We have our monuments, such beautiful pieces of art.
We have our freedom and our say.
We even have a lady Liberty standing in the cold of a New York bay,
To prove this to ourselves.
Yet some how. On this day. The fourth of July. This very signifigant day of independence declaring.
I feel ashamed. Ashamed at what has become of this my country.
Ashamed that after all this time, those hard won battles are nothing but stains in the grass of time.
Nothing but bits of bone rotting back into the earth.
There was once such pride in knowing we were free from the rules of others.
Were is that freedom now?
My children cannot pray in school for fear of being expelled. God forbid the word CHRISTMAS be used when it WINTER HOLIDAY.
If I wanted to spank my child for robbing a store I would go to jail for abuse. And my child would be given a cookie and new mommy. This FREEDOM we are celebrating so loudly tomarrow, ahem today, has been disolving right in front of our very eyes and ears, we have cheered this on, we have sighned the documents to let this bill pass and put that law into motion.
The very celebration itself has rules and regulations now doesn't it. Yes, yes it is for the safety of our children and our homes. I guess we as American are also ignorant as a bunch. Not one smart cookie in the crowd then eh. I am tired and this isn't making sense to me. Morphine does bad things to my brain. I wanted to just tell everyone to have a wonderful Fourth of July celebration and remind you to not forget what its all about. What a perfect day to let the elders in your group of family and friends remind us all. Get out those scrap books and make some memories that will really count someday when some idiot president. Probably Hillary Clinton tries to make us all live in villages half naked with no tv.

I should not write so late when I am on drugs.

Sunday, July 03, 2005

Challenge completed

"Daddy, daddy," yelled Samantha as she ran full out into his arms. Scott swooped his daughter up and spinning around whispered " did you eat all my ice cream?" giggling Sam wiggled out of her dads arms and skipped into the house. As he followed to go in he looked up to the night sky smattered with stars, "god." He said." just a little help." Scott hesitated berfore opening the door. He was afraid of what he was walking into. Sam swung the door open wide, stealing his chance to prepare. He wanted to vomit from the stench of alcohol. The place was a wreck. It was dark in the front room except for the light from the t.v. and a yellowness seeping in from the kitchen.
He walked through calling for his wife.
"Kelli, ...kel...honey where are ya?" As he entered the kitchen he saw her right big toe sticking up, he came around the wall and saw her sitting, legs spread, head in hands, softly crying. He bent down to her,taking her hands, she looked up. The misery in her eyes the brightest thing in the room."
I wanna" she panted. " I. I. Need he-elp." He gathered her in his arms lifting her, holding her close he took her into the bathroom. She couldn't stand on her own, she was too drunk. He stepped into the shower with her, turned the water on and suffered the cold with her. As she sobered a bit he turned on some warmer water. They spoke in low tones to eachother, there was no blame, no angry words. Tears of relief fell from two sets of weary eyes.
It was quietly agreed. They would dress and go to the hospital that night. Scott would call Kelli's sister Meagan and they would figure out everything. The hospital costs could be worried about later. Kelli was to worry about herself only.
Meagan arrived within the hour. She went to Sammie and told her that her mommy was going on a vacation to get better. So she would be staying with her for awhile. Sammie was excited about spending time with her Aunt Meagan but she was worried about her mom too.
Kelli came in to Sammies room to say goodbye and tuck her into bed. " I'll call you every day sam, you are my heartbeat." "I love you." Samantha looked deep into her mommies eyes and said "momma, I will talk to god for you. he will make you better."
Kelli held her breath until they were a block down the road. " That little girl is my LIFE! How could I end up like this? What have I shown her Scott? SCOTT!?! WHAT HAVE I DONE!????
" Kelli,'s gonna be okay now. We're gonna get you better." "everythings gonna be fine."
"Scott, you don't sound so sure of that." " Is there something going on I don't know about?"
"No.No. Kel, everythings fine just you worry about getting sobered up."
The rest of the drive was silent with Scott and Kelli both absorbed in thought. The silence was comfortable between them. A soothing balm rather then a tense bother.
When they reached the hospital the lot was full, so they parked a few blocks up. Neither one of them minded the walk. They put their arms around each other and strolled down to the E. R. entrance. Breathing deeply Kelli looked at her husband, stopped for a moment,looked into his eyes, touching his cheek she said." I am the luckiest woman in the world , how do you put up with my terrible behavior? How can you love such a fool?"
Scott took her hand, turned it , gently pressed it to his lips, looking back into her eyes he whispered. " God said, never call another man a fool, I figure he meant that for chicks too!" His eyes crackling with light he lent down to kiss her as she giggled and kissed him back.

It was hours later that he was leaving the hospital. Bleary eyed and stumbling after all the damn paper work.
They had all agreed that while Kel had walked in of her own accord none of them wanted her walking out willy nilly. So it was agreed that if she wanted out Scott would have to sign her out too.
And he would go along with the Doctor.
Scotts train of thought was de-railed when he almost tripped over a tiny scrap of paper blowing down the street with the breeze. Because of the moonlight it appeared to be glowing. Curious Scott stopped and picked it up. Uncrinkling it he saw it was a lottery ticket bought that day. Absent mindledly he put it in his jeans pocket and got into his truck.

Meagan and Sammie woke him up the next morning with coffee and the paper. Meg said she'd run get some donuts, so Scott and Sam were alone for a spell. Sam asked." Daddy, how long with mommy be on vacation to get better?" " Well , honey it all depends on mommy."
"Daddy. Read da comicals pwease."
Laughing Scott could only nod. he opened the comics page and read them to his daughter.
At the top of one of the pages it had the winning lottery numbers. "Hey Sammie, hand me those pants will ya kid." Dutifully Sam got the pants for her dad. She didn't know what the piece of wrinkled paper was, and she sure didn't understand her dads gaping jaw or huge eyes.
" um, daddy.?"
Whispering " dad, dad, daddy, dad.?"
Panicking a bit now as she had never, ever, been ignorned. " DAD__DY!!!!"
" Screaming and jumping on the bed.

Meagan came racing into the room scared to death. She stopped in her tracks when she saw Scott.
"SCOTT!" "SCOTT!, what is it?"
Touching him she said his name again.
Startled he looked at her." Meg, look at this and tell me if I am wrong."
He handed her the paper and the ticket. She stood there for a moment, shook her head, then slowly sank to the bed.

The door of the Lottery Office swung wide as Scott and Meagan exited. The smiles on their faces could have melted the sun. As they made their way across the parking lot they broke into running leaps. "WOOP! WOOOOOP! WHHHHH HOOOO!
Scott was surely settin up a ruckus! " Meg! do you have any idea how relieved Kelli's gonna be!?!" " oh" "" We can pay for her treatment!." " We can pay off all our debts, we won't lose our house now!!!!!" " We can take Sammie to Disney World. Kelli can go to school again and concentrate on something other then losing the baby.

When they pulled into the hospital parking lot they were practically bursting at the seems with the joyous news they had to tell Kelli.
Kelli was sleepy and pale when they walked in but perked up when she saw the wonderous expressions on her husbands and sisters faces. " Whats going on you two?" she grinned.
Moving the stiff white blankets aside, Scott sat next to his wife. Took her hand in his , kissed it, looked starlight into her eyes. Mesmerized she opened her mouth to speak but found a gentle finger pressing her lips, her eyes glanced to her sister, who stood, feet together, hands to face, slightly hunched over as if in anticipation. That old familiar glimmer in her eyes.
Kelli looked back at Scott. " Baby, our dreams have come true! we won the lottery!!!! NO SHIT BABY DOLL WE GOT IT!!!!"
Kelli simply stared at him, as though he'd lost his mind.
" Wh....what.......what did you say?"
Scott jumped up and spun around, looking at her again he said " We won the lottery. Seven MILLION SMACKA ROONIES!!!!"
Kelli looked at her husband, the man she loved more then life itself and wondered if he was lying to her. Realizing that he wasn't, she said to him. " God has surely blessed us."
" Yes , yes he has baby, he surely surely has!"
"Scott we need to give some of the money to charity!"
" Do you know how many people we can help with money like that!"
" Thats one of the reasons I married you Kelli. You always alyways think of other people too."
We have alot of work to do darling. Alot of work to do.

Friday, July 01, 2005

not quite ready yet

I am stilll writing my story for Steel Cowboys.
Challenge!!! I had a post written but then I went away to get the laudry out of the dryer and I folded it up and promptly took a nap. Which I am about to do again in a moment. Yesterday cleaning out the fridge wore me out. It wasn't as bad as I thought it was gonna be. I didn't have to call the zoo or a scientist or animal control so it went pretty well! I didn't even find anything interesting. I did throw out a whole herd of sauces and stuff though. I never use them and have had them forever. Pretty sure they were past there good til dates. So now I have some ketchup and mayo, mustard and relish, and some terriaki sauce. I got some pickles. Some delicious tea I made and um yeah thats about it. I got to go to the store!
Just in case any one was wondering about my homemade tea:
10 regular black and orange pekoe
2 chamomille
2 spiced chai
and 2 green tea with orange and mango
Talk about delicious!!!! Just add about a cup and a quarter of sugar at the bottom of the pitcher, add some hot water and then put in the tea bags. Let steep for about twenty minutes, throw away tea bags and add ice cubes. SOOO GOOD and refreshing. okay I have to go do more laundry and finish writing that story. I am getting sucked in to the world of Scott and Kelli and their daughter Samantha.