Monday, December 12, 2011
The job hunt isn't going so well. I have to admit I am not putting much effort in though. With the holidays I just don't have the energy, and I don't want to start a job two days before christmas. I would much rather wait until January, how ever that isn't going to help my pocket book. I have so many bills to pay and HE has no income to speak of so is no help what so ever. It really is very draining on everything to have him here. But I still can't find it with in my heart to make him leave when its so dang cold outside and the big holdiays coming up. I have yet to talk to his sister to see if he can stay there. I just do not want to take care of him. I can't afford to take care of him. I am thinking he needs more help then I can give. He has some almost dementia type things happening. I am thinking it won't be long and he will need to be in a home. I can't take care of him, not with out getting paid. I know that sounds terrible. But I can't afford to take care of him being on ss myself. Even when I find employment I can't afford the total care of an adult man, and ontop of it I am having to do all the work of caring for an adult man. I cook, clean, remind him to shower, remind him of appointments, take him to appointments. I can't leave him at home alone without having anxiety attacks because I am afraid he will leave the stove on... He has an appointment with ss this week, I wish I could talk to them. He doesn't ever say what needs to be said. He literally drank away most of his functioning brain cells. The strokes he has had have not helped that situation at all. I know they are going to say he doesn't qualify. If they spent even 24 hours with him they would have a VERY different opinion. Possibly even want to put him in a home. How do I make something like that happen. Who do we go to?