I give up, surrender, give in. To sanity.
I know, I know, Its about time I pulled my head out of my ass.
I just can't do it anymore. I love Derek he is my best friend. He ignored me for the last few days since he left. Tonight I had a pretty bad scare, I sent him a text and he was there for me. I won't go into right now I gotta get some sleep. Lets just say that the safety and well being of my children and myself has taken presedence over any kinda other b.s. I am freaking out a bit here.